Today, is an important day.
I apologize for all the problems I've caused.
My fault.
My mistake.
My ego, my attitude problem.
I don't wish and plead for forgiveness.
But, I wish to reconcile with my close ones back.
Deep down inside, I know most of them care for me.
Just that they don't mix with me anymore, because of my attitude.
Well, I thank those who have been true to me.
I thank you if you've spoke words to me, that changes me.
Maybe I should keep certain stuff to myself, and not blow everything up to everyone.
I should learn how to shut up, forgive, control my adrenaline blood that rushes and boils.
Should learn how to balance my opinions. And be silent at the right situations.
I know. I learn. I wish to change. Maybe it's time to pick up my sack, and move on.
All of you, guide me would ya ? =]
I should learn how to shut up.
Had full dress rehearsal today for the upcoming Christmas play, The Grinch. A temporary dye was sprayed upon my thick bulky hair. Haha.
Tell me what it takes, to be a good enough kid.
Tell me what it takes, to be mature.
Tell me what it takes, to meet the obedience's requirements.
Tell me what it takes, to be a son that is a man, not a boy.
Tell me what it takes, to be a good son.
Tell me what it takes, to be a good husband.
Tell me what it takes, to be a good father.
I'll pay you bucks, time, effort for it.
Why am I never a satisfactory son to the both of you, no matter how hard I try and prove myself. I've never complained that I'm not pampered as the only child like any others. All I want, is to be man that is able to lift my head held high, and knowing that my confidence comes from my parents that are proud of their son.
Tell me what it takes, to be mature.
Tell me what it takes, to meet the obedience's requirements.
Tell me what it takes, to be a son that is a man, not a boy.
Tell me what it takes, to be a good son.
Tell me what it takes, to be a good husband.
Tell me what it takes, to be a good father.
I'll pay you bucks, time, effort for it.
Why am I never a satisfactory son to the both of you, no matter how hard I try and prove myself. I've never complained that I'm not pampered as the only child like any others. All I want, is to be man that is able to lift my head held high, and knowing that my confidence comes from my parents that are proud of their son.
I will never set immature beings as my benchmarks anymore.
With the help of my helpful and kind friend, Amelia. I managed to change my blog's skin :D Haha, how's it, green taste this time :) Not that emo. haha. Clean blog skin. Fresh. Swept out unwanted links as well. Refreshing blog with a touch of nature :D
I love to laugh. I love to make people laugh. People even laugh at the way I laugh.
But still, people leave me because I'm strict in certain things and that I have certain principles that I live by. How sad, I'm too hardcore for this world.
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p/s, Don't worry, I won't kill myself, Haha :D
They actually brought me to experience, chairtop moments :)
Went to service as usual. You wouldn't know, how delighted I am, seeing Aunt.Freda approach me with a smile, asking me to leave the past behind, and serve God. Talking normal again with the funky buddy. Back to normal :) Well, the apology works. Simply because I cared, and I took initiative :)
What point I'm trying to draw is that, what makes a man is not that he makes no mistakes, but being humble enough to apologize and stand up like a man. I did it. I'm proud of myself as well.
Unlike some bunch of people you know. Forget it, I'm just ranting :)
Spoke to Yukki yesterday. She was so afraid that I wasn't gonna talk to her or so, due to certain reasons. But I cleared it off, by saying that I'll give fair treatment towards her, as well as Amelia as well. They're both good friends of mine, still :)
If the unusual peeps, compscience peeps, can celebrate pleasantly for me, I don't see any other reasons or excuses why I'm dejected like a pinball amongst us, should I say, you all ? :)
I FREAKING PASSED COMPSCIENCE2 PAPER ! ;D
